Triggers

My post the other day triggered something inside of me. I don’t know if it was thinking about my beloved dog, scenes from my childhood, my dad’s drinking or what; but after writing I instantly fell back into some old habits without even realizing it. Double checking the front door to make sure it’s locked, avoiding windows and mirrors, jumping onto the bed after turning the light off, etc. These fears and actions controlled my life for years and all of a sudden I was doing them again without even realizing it. The thing is I didn’t even realize I had ever stopped doing these things. I am glad that I triggered these old actions. Seeing myself worry about nothing and doing these silly things made me realize just how far I’ve come. I feel like often times you hope you are growing and making progress but you don’t always notice the changes. It was a real eye opener for me to see how far I have come. I am a much happier and healthier person today than I used to be. I owe it all to my wonderful husband and all of his support. He has always encouraged me and given me the love I needed to take the next step in my life. I love him more and more each day and am so thankful to have him in my life.

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